A 𝕎𝕠𝕞𝕒𝕟’𝕤 𝔾𝕦𝕚𝕕𝕖 𝕥𝕠 𝕌𝕟𝕕𝕖𝕣𝕤𝕥𝕒𝕟𝕕𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕐𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕆𝕨𝕟 ℕ𝕒𝕥𝕦𝕣𝕒𝕝ℝ𝕪𝕥𝕙𝕪𝕞𝕤
This mornings journal entry.
Day: March 17, 2021
Phase: Cleansing phase
(Day 3 of cleansing phase)
****Intention in Journaling during cleansing phase is to journal all that needs to be cleansed to stay on point with hopes, goals and dreams
FROM THE JOURNAL:
Menstruation Phase/ aka CLEANSING PHASE
The Journaling intention is body/mind heart cleansing. Get it all out, let it all go, feel it or speak it to disappear it. In this phase we are feeling, speaking and writing it as a practice and a process to teach us how to let go more quickly as we use our physiological cleansing days to truly cleanse-as we use the wisdom of our rhythms, giving ourselves permission to allow. In this phase you may feel more tender, more emotional, more sensitive or you may be fine. Either way, the intention is cleansing. You may discover a depth and richness that provides you with relief and self-acceptance. Letting go first thing in the morning may also help you have better days. If now, always get the help you feel you need
This is my personal morning journal from today
Christmas morning ✔️
Valentine’s Day ✔️
✔️And March 15, 2021.
Those are my mensuration dates.
Today on St Patrick’s day I woke up all sweaty, feeling puffy with that deep awareness I am bleeding.
Am I growing younger or something?
Or is this return to my previously normal schedule vaccine #1 induced.
I don’t know. Time will tell.
Keeping my data collecting on this 👇🏼
Here’s Why Women Experience Stronger Side Effects to COVID-19 Vaccines
“Simply put, women in general have a stronger response to vaccines because their bodies are quicker and stronger when it comes to activating what the vaccine introduces in the body.
“Infectious diseases in general are always about the immune response and not the bug,” said Dr. Larry Schlesinger, president and chief executive officer of the Texas Biomedical Research Institute in San Antonio.
“In women, there is an exuberant and stronger response [to many vaccines],” he told Healthline. “There’s actually a lot of science behind this.”
In the past, Schlesinger said, a stronger response in females has been seen and studied in vaccines for yellow fever, DPT, influenza, and other illnesses.
Schlesinger said estrogen encourages the body to produce more T-cells, the reactor cells that protect us, when a vaccine is introduced.
Thus, he said, we see the quicker and stronger response many women experience.”
YOU CAN READ THE HEALTH-LINE ARTICLE BY CLICKING THIS BUTTON BELOW:
Only time will tell.
Woke up this am:
Body feels: a lot
Mind thinks: cranky
Heart is: worried.
Not “worried” about my own body, or my own mind as much as worried about others. After all, I’ve had plenty of experiences waking up in this way. It was my worried heart -not my mind or me being “oh so negative” that needed time and space to move so that I can work with my own worried heart. Not against it.
Very often with children, husbands or partners all throughout my adult life this “heart is worried thing,” is why -waking up extra early to handle this part of how my heart works was so important to me. My heart is always had the desire to love others in the way they needed to be loved. Harder to do when your heart is worried.
It’s also why waking up late, having to rush while my heart was worried caused me so much anxiety and stress.
This is also why all that “level of the mind” only stuff has never had any power to help me.
“It’s all in your head” is something others say and it might be because it’s true for them but I just want to say, that has never been helpful to my heart. All that’s ever did was get in the way of my hearts natural desire to move the way it moves.
I can't imagine with all the newer science and much needed deeper look into all the things, that I am alone in that, you know-human being wise. In the Human design model, it is said that 51 % of people have what the call "emotional authority" as their primary gift within their own unique blueprint. This brings me all the way back to this incredible woman and the tools of awareness she gives anyone who may have emotional authority as their gift: Emotional Mastery: The Gifted Wisdom of Unpleasant feelings.
It's SO GOOD! because through her time, research and her education, she has learned that the feelings come before the thoughts and she gives people the opportunity to move the way feelings move. If this is someone's nature it would be a great tool for them.... Check it out, try it on, see what you see....
Now: Back to my Peri-Meno-Postmenopausal journey morning cleanse write:
So I go for these long early morning walks until I find a place to sit and write. There is a woman here who is older than I who works in security. She’s very mellow and she’s always kind. She embodies that Aloha vibe full on. What it means to embody aloha is very different than using Aloha as a cover up for all things. I've noticed this as a distinction here. Not saying it can't grow or evolve or be cultivated but what I am saying is, it's probably a good idea to know if you are truly embodying it or if you are just using it cause you think it makes you appear cool. She is the embodiment of Aloha through and through.
We “talk story” for about 5 minutes each time we see one another.
When I expressed this time of life feels like the perfect time to understand the story of my own life better. Seems like my peri-menopause is the perfect time to do that. What I am actually saying is that I am listening and honoring my own natural rhythms. (For those who may be in the mood to argue with me. No need, you can focus on your own natural rhythms and what is true in your own life)
My Security friend though.......Her smile was so wide while shaking her head yes knowingly as she said “It’s like you’re cleaning things up so you can let it all go”
I call it re-writing but it’s the same thing and I have to wonder how often we are saying the same thing but we get stuck in which words are being used.
She also said:
..... “And young people think you’re crazy. That’s just because they haven’t reached this stage of life yet.”
Yes! It is true in some moments I have to make a conscious effort primarily with my own son, remembering not that he isn’t a mini me but rather...he’s not in his fifties therefore I can not expect him to be where I am or be open to all I have to offer him all the time but that also doesn’t mean I shouldn’t speak up when my heart knows things either.
I think all parents can relate to the truth that we are always working on our communication as art and we are the artists with our children as they continue to move and grow through their own lives.
I love and will close this journal entry with these quotes
“When you parent, it’s crucial you realize you aren’t raising a “mini me,” but a spirit throbbing with its own signature. For this reason, it’s important to separate who you are from who each of your children is. Children aren’t ours to possess or own in any way. When we know this in the depths of our soul, we tailor our raising of them to their needs, rather than molding them to fit our needs.”
“By silently witnessing our thoughts and feelings, we learn to accept them as they are, allowing them to rise and fall within us without resisting them or reacting to them. As you learn to be with your emotions, they will no longer overwhelm you. In the full acceptance of surrender, which is of a quite different character from mere resignation, you come to see that pain is simply pain, nothing more and nothing less. Yes, pain is painful— it’s meant to be. However, when you don’t fuel your pain by either resisting or reacting, but sit with it, it transforms itself into wisdom. Your wisdom will increase in line with your capacity for embracing all of your feelings, whatever their nature. Along with increased wisdom comes a greater capacity for compassion.”
Shefali Tsabary, The Conscious Parent
Now after about an hour of morning rituals, alone time and self care.... I’m back.
Body feels: Good
Mind thinks: grateful
Heart is: clean
P.S. lately, I have noticed for me -my heart being *clean* is my newest most simplistic desire before I leave my house. It’s almost like my peri-menopausal heart likes a clean heart as it's best medicine
While I don't invite people into helping me cleanse my heart I do have an invitation for any woman who is guided by her own Natural Rhythms! If you have cleansing Tribal music you would like to add to our WOMAN'S GUIDE: CLEANSING-TRIBAL Spotify Play list...do reach out
My Body/Mind and heart favorite this morning..... Tribal softness....
There's also an Opportunity with the more modern playlist too. If you have music that moves you and helps you cleanse what needs to be cleansed in tribal or modern ways....Do reach out
My Favorite Modern choice this am.......